When the book-traveling little detective meets the two-faced prince

Chapter 105: Words buried deep in my heart

Lin Lezhi's parents were stunned for a moment, with expressions of astonishment on their faces, as if they had never expected to hear such words from Lin Lezhi.

This sentence.

The fig leaf that the two people used as a cover for love was torn apart.

Lin Lezhi did not pay attention to the follow-up of the case because he did not want to see the news of Ji Hang's death on TV. He even did not turn on the mobile phone he got back from the police station.

But a while ago, Ge Mingyuan's case, which was related to a serial murder case seven years ago and the inhumane illegal transactions, undoubtedly caused a sensation in the whole city.

In order to ensure the safety of the victims, the police will conceal the victims' information, and the media will certainly add mosaics when reporting. But if they really take a good look at themselves for a moment, they will not care at all, and how can they not see that the person in the video is their own child.

Do not……

If they knew, they wouldn't ask why I didn't report to school.

Such an understatement.

Do they do the same to the children they love?

To put it nicely, it is love; to put it bluntly, it is just to make up for the guilt in their hearts. It has nothing to do with whether I am their child or not.

Perhaps because he touched upon their true thoughts, Lin Zhiren's face was surprised at first, but was soon replaced by embarrassment. To save his own reason and face, Lin Zhiren raised his voice and said impatiently, "Seeing you like this, how can your mother and I not worry and ignore you? Look at you now. How can there be students like you, drinking every day? Do you know that you are destroying your future by doing this!"

"No matter what, if I say no, can you stand here?" Lin Zhiren inspected Lin Lezhi's room. There were beer cans everywhere. Lin Zhiren continued, "We give you living expenses every month so that you can live a good life, not to make you decadent in your room every day."

Lin Lezhi lowered his eyes and said without any emotion: "If you don't come, your eyes won't be polluted."

"What are you talking about, you...!"

"Zhiren, stop talking." Xu Nuo interrupted Lin Zhiren.

As she spoke, Xu Nuo's eyes were covered with a layer of mist and she choked up and said, "It's my fault. I know you blame me for neglecting you in the past few years, but there are no parents in the world who don't care about their children. Hearing you say that, I'm really sad."

"..."

Seeing that Lin Lezhi didn't respond, Xu Nuo continued to ease the awkward atmosphere: "It's okay. If you don't want to go to the police academy, we won't go, but you have to find a decent job. Lezhi, it's okay for you to blame us, but your parents really can't bear to see you live like this."

Lin Lezhi raised his head and looked at Xu Nuo, who was blaming himself. His eyes were so indifferent that it seemed as if he could see through his heart. Xu Nuo couldn't help but feel a little panicked, and his eyes began to avoid him.

Lin Lezhi withdrew his gaze and subconsciously looked at the location of the photo on the table. There were also a large number of professional criminal investigation books that became popular because of Ji Hang on the table.

Just because he didn't want to see these things, Lin Lezhi chose to stay in the dark.

Now that the lights were on, Ji Hang's smile in the photo caught Lin Lezhi's eyes. Next to Ji Hang stood a boy with a stern face.

Although he looked expressionless, only the owner of the photo knew how nervous and happy he was when he took the photo that day.

Looking at Ji Hang's smiling face, Lin Lezhi's eyes alternated between light and dark, and he could not feel relieved.

After all, they are stars that I cannot reach.

After reading it, Lin Lezhi looked at his parents, his eyes calmed down. Lin Lezhi laid out everything and said, "You said you cared about me, but you just wanted to make up for the responsibility and guilt in your heart. It's not true love for me, but pity. But no matter what, I am still very grateful for your presence. You let us clearly see our current situation, which is indeed very bad."

After hearing what Lin Lezhi said, Xu Nuo and Lin Lezhi looked embarrassed. They wanted to say something, but when they opened their mouths, nothing came out.

Lin Lezhi took a deep breath and said calmly: "Whether you believe it or not, I have never blamed you, and I don't want to be a burden to you. We should all have our own lives. I understand your choice and hope you can respect my choice. I mean it, you don't have to come to see me anymore."

Lin Zhiren: “How come…”

"You don't need to send me living expenses anymore. I want to walk my own path in the future."

"..."

Lin Lezhi's parents were silent, their hearts filled with complicated emotions. They had no way of refutation of anything Lin Lezhi said. They really only had love for Lin Lezhi that was born out of guilt.

They don't even know how to communicate normally with their own children.

Lin Zhiren and Xu Nuo looked at each other, and then Lin Zhiren sighed, and then respected Lin Lezhi's wishes and said: "Since Lezhi, you have decided to live the life you want, we respect your decision and ideas, but if you encounter difficulties in life, don't bear it alone, understand?"

Xu Nuo stepped forward and grabbed Lin Lezhi's hand. This time Lin Lezhi did not dodge. After all, it was the first time and might also be the last time.

Xu Nuo's hands were very warm.

With tears in her eyes, Xu Nuo said, "Lezhi, Mom wants you to live the life you want more than anyone else. No matter what you choose, Mom will support you."

Lin Lezhi looked at his parents with a slight smile on his face.

Lin Lezhi knew that at this moment, they were speaking from the heart.

After seeing his parents off, Lin Lezhi turned off the lights in the room, and the room fell into darkness again, but soon, light shone into Lin Lezhi's room again.

Lin Lezhi pulled open the tightly closed curtains in the room, and then opened the window, letting fresh air into the room and taking away some of the drunkenness.

Lin Lezhi stretched out his hand and touched the light coming in. The sunlight wrapped around his fingers and was also very warm.

Lin Lezhi put the empty beer cans at home into the trash bag. Although they were different types of beer, the only thing they had in common was that they were all Ji Hang's favorites.

Lin Lezhi was reluctant to throw away those books about criminal investigation because they were the only connection with the former Ji Hang, but he didn't dare to take another look at them.

So, Lin Lezhi bought a lot of other books to cover all the books related to Ji Hang, and also placed the only photo of Ji Hang upside down on the desk forever.

The books he bought were not just for display, Lin Lezhi would read every one of them.

Immersing oneself in the world of books can help one forget some things for a short period of time. Later, Lin Lezhi tried to write his own articles, which was a good way to escape and could also be used to make a living.

Lin Lezhi no longer knows how to open his old cell phone.

Lin Lezhi saved money to buy a new mobile phone and only kept his original phone number.

Since he didn't have to go out, Lin Lezhi became more and more unkempt, with his overly long hair always covering his eyes.

Although Lin Lezhi told his parents not to worry about him anymore, they still deposited his living expenses into his card on a regular basis every month.

However, Lin Lezhi did not touch the money.

Even if Lin Lezhi tried every possible way to cover up all traces of Ji Hang, it was not so easy to forget.

Every night, Lin Lezhi could still recall the last moment of Ji Hang's life. When he thought of Ji Hang still being alive, he smiled and said to himself, "You have to think about it yourself. Anyway, when I come out of the operating room, you have to think about it."

Lin Lezhi was puzzled and couldn't figure out what Ji Hang wanted to hear, or whether he was just saying it casually to calm himself down.

At first, I could still escape for a moment by drinking, but later I don’t know if it was because I drank too much. I used to be able to get drunk with just a little bit of drink, but now I become more sober after drinking a lot of cans.

Between lucidity and confusion, the years continued to pass, and the impact of Ji Hang's death on Lin Lezhi was also reduced year by year. Finally, Lin Lezhi reached the age when Ji Hang died, 29 years old.

On this day, Lin Lezhi finally went out again after several months. He got up early and went to the supermarket downstairs to buy two cans of beer, one cold and one at room temperature.

Afterwards, Lin Lezhi arrived at Ji Hang’s tomb. This was the first time Lin Lezhi came here.

The black tombstone sparkled in the sunlight.

There is also a photo of Ji Hang on the tombstone, with a warm smile that is brighter than the sun.

Just like when he sat side by side with Ji Hang by the river before, Lin Lezhi sat down next to Ji Hang's tombstone, opened the can of room temperature beer and placed it in front of Ji Hang's tombstone.

Then Lin Lezhi opened the bottle of ice in his hand, bumped it against the can of beer in front of the tombstone, and then raised his head and took a sip.

"Don't you always say that you are too old to drink cold drinks? Just think of me as taking care of an elderly person." Lin Lezhi looked at the beer can in his hand, smiled and joked to himself.

"I'm sorry I didn't come to see you before, but it's not too late now. I know you're not the kind of person who would care about these things. You're kind to everyone, always rushing to the front when you're in danger, and always smiling it off when you're hurt."

"You are the only person besides my grandfather that I want to pursue. I once thought that it would be great if I could be like you, but I can never do it, and I will never be able to become you." Lin Lezhi smiled and continued, "The only thing I can catch up with you is age."

"However, I am not here to reminisce with you this time. I..." Lin Lezhi's eyes darkened, and he exhaled slightly and said, "Don't you like drinking beer? So I chose this way to say goodbye to you. You will like it, right?"

"...It's useless even if you don't like it. It's your fault for always teasing me in the past."

After a moment of silence, Lin Lezhi placed the bottle of beer in his hand next to the bottle of room temperature beer, then stood up and slowly bowed to Ji Hang's tombstone, then smiled and said, "Goodbye, Ji Hang."

Turning around, tears slid down Lin Lezhi's thin cheeks.

When he was about to walk out of the cemetery, he heard the sound of rapid running behind him. Within three seconds, a man wearing a security uniform stopped Lin Lezhi, panting.

"Excuse me, are you Lin Lezhi?" the man said, panting.

Although he has gained some weight, his temples are also a little gray.

But Lin Lezhi still recognized the person in front of him at a glance, it was Ge Mingyuan.

Lin Lezhi had not shaved his hair for several years, and his overly long hair always blocked his vision. Even his parents might not recognize him now. Lin Lezhi didn't know where he was exposed.

Lin Lezhi once hated Ge Mingyuan, but if he had to hate someone, the person Lin Lezhi hated the most was himself.

"Is there anything wrong?" Lin Lezhi asked.

Ge Mingyuan smiled awkwardly and said, "I just saw two cans of beer next to the tombstone, so I thought it might be you. I'm sorry for what happened back then."

"why?"

"Because back then..."

"It's not that. Why do you think it's me when you see the beer can?"

"Oh, I heard it from Ji Hang's colleagues." Ge Mingyuan realized that what he said was vague, so he quickly gave additional explanation.

At that time, Ge Mingyuan did not commit intentional homicide, and there was a hidden motive for the crime, so Ge ​​Mingyuan was sentenced to five years in prison and was released just two years ago.

Because of the guilt in his heart, Ge Mingyuan felt that he was no longer qualified to be a doctor, so he came to the cemetery to work as a security guard. Every day, he would clean the graves of Ji Hang and the innocent man, and then go to his daughter's grave to talk to her, hoping to atone for his sins.

Although Ge Mingyuan also knew that doing so was useless.

Whenever he met Ji Hang's colleagues, Ge Mingyuan would take the opportunity to go up and ask them. Over time, he learned a lot about Ji Hang from his colleagues.

Ji Hang would always mention Lin Lezhi at the police station, even down to the minute details like him shaking a beer can.

Among all the photos placed on the table, there was one that belonged to Ji Hang and Lin Lezhi. Although among all the photos with smiling faces, Lin Lezhi without a smile looked very discordant.

When talking about Lin Lezhi, Ji Hang always looks proud.

Lin Lezhi was admitted to the same police academy as Ji Hang, so Ji Hang knew Lin Lezhi's grades in every subject and was never stingy with his praise for Lin Lezhi in front of his colleagues. He knew that Lin Lezhi deliberately didn't say it, probably because he wanted to give him a surprise.

So Ji Hang just pretended not to know.

However, he has been making this threat in the bureau for a long time, and because Ji Hang is very popular, he has almost reached the point of telling everyone he meets.

"When that brat throws the admission letter in front of me, I will make him call me Senior Brother."

After saying this, he always looks very proud.

When his colleagues complained to him that he was not so happy when he passed the exam, Ji Hang would proudly reply, "That's right, it doesn't matter who found out, I was born to be a good criminal policeman."

Listening to Ge Mingyuan's story, Lin Lezhi felt a dull pain in his chest, but he couldn't vent it.

original……

Is this what Ji Hang wants to hear?

Now that I think about it, Ji Hang had already given me hints during every conversation by the river.

These are the simplest words, but I can no longer say them.

Before stepping out of the cemetery, Lin Lezhi stopped and looked in the direction of Ji Hang's tombstone, and said solemnly: "Ji Hang..." Then Lin Lezhi replied in his heart, "Senior Brother".

As I turned and left, tears began to fall again.

Lin Lezhi also buried the word "senior brother" in his heart forever.